Last week was probably the best I've had in a long while. I got to my first goal weight. I was actually 0.1 lbs under. I know that's not a lot, but for me it was a tiny (no pun intended) victory. That being said, Saturday was the undoing of everything I have accomplished.
The basic run-down of my weekend:
Friday night - hanging out with a cute guy and a new friend, still on adderall (40 mg) from that morning.
Saturday morning - take adderall (20 mg) when I wake up, planning to stay bored at home until I get picked up for the party, eat my breakfast (which takes about 2 hours), another friend calls and wants to go to the mall so I take more adderall (40 mg).
Saturday night - I thought the addys and my cigarettes would get me through the party without a problem..I was wrong. I greatly underestimated my tolerance for ADHD drugs at this point. I was okay when I first arrived but then my friends made all this food...I ended up binging on pizza rolls, gummy worms, and a small fry from McDonalds.
Long story short (but still kind of long, lol), I gained back half the weight I lost in my week of "staying strong." I feel so worthless and fat. I looked at my reflection this morning and I swear I put on at least 20 lbs...but the scale only says 4. I guess in my head 4 lbs might as well be 20 lbs.
Total loss for last week is 4.6 lbs. It would have been 8.6.... *sigh*
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