I ate too much yesterday. I can feel it. I'm so scared to step on the scale in the morning, but I know that I must. I'm so sick of starting OVER AND OVER. This is a never ending cycle.
I have finally found a place where I feel like I belong. The problem is, that place is at youth group. I am not, nor will I ever be a christian. My friends bring me in the hopes that I will one day become one. I don't want to let them down, nor do I want to lose my comfortable place, but I feel like I'm living a lie. The only divine power in my life is Ana.
I just want this to be over. I just wish my body would look how I want. I don't want to wait, I just want to go and do it. I don't want to lose the last ounce of faith I have left.
-The Eye Sore
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